Waiting. Tender achy breasts, indigestion, bloated, cramping, tired, peeing all the time, and nauseous.... for daaaaaaaaaaaaaays!
I still kept having that sensation inside of me to yell victoriously that the Lord has given me a baby.... I fight that off as my carnal nature deems that illogical with no positive test yet and won't be seen till Tuesday the 6th... I really believe this is it though. I just believe.
It hit me as I was putting away dishes that this maybe is what God is telling me... to speak it! To speak in faith that this is it. That IS the definition of faith... not, "I hope so"... not "well, in God's timing" OF COURSE EVERYTHING IS IN HIS TIMING, but we still speak in faith what is when it is yet unseen. Jesus said in John 14:13, And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen -KJV
So even though we pray that the Father's will be done, He also says doing what we ask brings glory to the father through the Son who will do it. That means my faith can move this mountain. That is the kind of faith I need. Not just the ho hum, well, do whatever you want God... Yes of course! You are the Father and you know best!!!!! I love you, because you first loved me! But our Father WANTS us to bring Him glory by asking and believing for things that come to pass!!!! Therein lies testimony as well to unbelievers! And to mustard seed faithed believers alike, the worn out, those like me who have been through the desert and need to know that there is somewhere in green grass I will someday lay beside still waters.
Maybe this is what God is trying to get through to me... I giggle to myself. Thank you Lord!
I have said now almost a week that this is it... I know this is it. I know it. Thank you Father! Thank you Jesus!!!!
This weekend I looked online to see how long it takes the HCG trigger shot to get out of your system... most every site, and almost every forum said that within 10 days HCG was out of the system, including the HCG manufacturers... and even very legitimate sites stating the 1000 i/u of HCG leaves your body a day... so it would still mean 10 days...